ADDICTION

"addiction is the only disease that will convince you that you dont have it" ... (Narcotics Anonymous)

i THOUGHT i had this thing beat, i THOUGHT i was okay. and so i went to the doctor and said of course i can be trusted with 120 percocet, OF COURSE! cause i have this under control now. i stopped going to my drug rehab place and decided i am not an addict cause i was taking 2 a night to control the horrible back pain and i wasnt craving anything all dang day and blah blah blah...so doctor decided okay well since you KNOW where you have been with this addiction and where you DONT EVER want to be again, im going to trust that you really are in control....(huh?! wtf?! im a DRUG ADDICT !!) anyways i went home on january 10th with 120 percocet, and i am now officially out..so that averages out to about 9 pills a day (which is what i was up to when i 'quit' in october) and im going through freaking withdrawl. and its gonna suck donkey balls when it really gets bad...so im here, and im angry cause i REALLY thought i had this damn thing licked...and i dont...my name is -------- and i...i am a drug addict.....