IM BACK

i know i know run for your lives! lol...lotts happened since last posting. fish are dead. seriously the turtles are red-eared sliders and i guess are known to be vicious and will eat other fish, thats why i bought the feeder goldfish, i didnt realize they would also attack any other fish in the darn tank! both algae eaters are gone, and all the goldfish except the white one are gone, i have however seen the white one attacking the turtles one day so maybe thats why they dont bother him?! i dont know...haha...im sad about the algae eaters so poonanny about that. i "made" two new friends and only one survived the last month haha...idk whatever. i got some new tires courtesy of my new friends helping me get a huge discount cause he works at a tire place, but it seems that his (married to another man) girlfriend is jealous of  me being friends with him ( i really am surprised since shes the one who wanted desperately for me to meet him and be friends with him...) so her and i exchanged words and are no longer friends...we did go to chicago (on hubby and my dime of course) all together before the friendship broke up so i guess ill always have the memories? haha. anyways whatever. im thinking of going to chicago this weekend while hubby and daughter stay home. would be nice to get away for once BY MYSELF. for myself. you know? ever needed a mommy vacation? im lucky enough to be able to get one, i dont think i should miss this oppurtunity.....got really horrible news about my back MRI and i dont even know which way to look for guidance on that one. but for now i am back on pain meds that i didnt want to take, but they arent even really helping so  im not really taking them. the doctor placed me on bedrest but i know from my medical background and experience, that bedrest is NOT going to help my back, its going to make it worse from not moving, and since im working out at the Y and not dying of pain when im done working out, then im going to continue that workout until i cant. if something breaks (my back or neck or something) then i guess ill have learned my lesson the way i learn all my lessons in life, the HARD way...haha....my mom thinks im crazy but i am so whats the big deal? she also knows i do things the hard way cause whats the point in listening to people when i think i know better? haha. ok well im tired and have to go squeeze in a 45 minute workout at the ymca so im not throwing my schedule off...hubby is playing his darn game anyways and wont even notice me if im missing for a little while....kinda sad if you think about it....

laters

EXCERCISE

joined the ymca and worked out for first time today in like 4 years! ha, crazy. was good though. got some pain in my knee but nothing too bad....glad to have had some time to myself and not dealing with all the bs around here. got more drama on the way which sucks but whatever, i will handle it as usual. turtles and fish still doing good. :)

S I G H

i just have no more words. im exhausted emotionally and physically. got some turtles and fish so happy about that. car is messed up. will cost a lot of money to fix. so basically cant drive too much other then essential driving. rack and pinion are ready to go at any moment  estimated cost to fix that - $800 , power steering pump ready to go soon too - est. cost to repair that $350. need two front tires DESPERATELY bad est. cost for them $300. going to crawl in a cave and not come out ever again.